Farseer 2 - Royal Assassin Page 7

  I had never heard Verity speak like this, his voice so even but so fraught with emotion. I kept silent.

  "You think I should punish him. I could. I need not prove his wrongdoing to make life unpleasant for him. I could send him as emissary to Cold Bay, on some contrived errand, and keep him there, in uncomfortable conditions, far from court. I could all but banish him. Or I could keep him here at court, but so load him with unpleasant duties that he has no time for that which amuses him. He would understand he was being punished. So would every noble with half a wit. Those who sympathize with him would rally to his defense. The Inland Duchies could contrive some emergency in his mother's land that demanded the presence of her son. Once there, he could build further support for himself. He might very well be able to foment the civil unrest he sought before, and found an inland kingdom loyal only to him. Even if he did not achieve that end, he could cause enough unrest to steal the unity I must have if I am to defend our kingdom."

  He stopped speaking. He lifted his eyes and glanced around the room. I followed his gaze. The walls were hung with his maps. There was Beams, there was Shoaks, and here was Rippon. On the opposite wall, Buck, Farrow, and Tilth. All done in Verity's precise hand, every river blue-inked, every town named. Here were his Six Duchies. He knew them as Regal never would. He had ridden those roads, helped set the markers of those boundaries. Following Chivalry, he had treated with the folk who bordered our lands. He had swung a sword in defense of it, and known when to set down that sword and negotiate a peace. Who was I to be telling him how to rule at home?

  "What will you do?" I asked quietly.

  "Keep him. He is my brother. And my father's son." He poured himself more wine. "My father's most cherished; youngest son. I have gone to my father, the King, and suggested that Regal might be more content with his lot if he had more to do with the running of the kingdom. King Shrewd has consented to this. I expect to be much occupied with defending our land from the Red-Ships. So to Regal will fall the task of raising the revenues we shall need, and he will also be dealing with any other internal crises that may arise. With a circle of nobles to assist him, of course. He is full welcome to deal with their bickering and dissensions."

  "And Regal is content with this?"

  Verity smiled a thin smile. "He cannot say he is not. Not if he wishes to keep the image of a young man adept at ruling and but waiting for opportunity to prove himself." He lifted his wineglass and turned to stare into the fire. The only sound in the room was the snapping of the flames as they consumed the wood. "When you come to me tomorrow," he began.

  "Tomorrow I must have for myself," I told him.

  He set down his wineglass and turned to look at me. "Must you?" he asked in an odd tone.

  I looked up and met his eyes. I swallowed. I brought myself to my feet. "My prince," I began formally. "I would ask your kind permission to be excused from duties tomorrow, that I might ... pursue errands of my own."

  He let me stand for a moment. Then: "Oh, sit down, Fitz. Petty. I suppose that was petty of me. Thinking of Regal puts me in such a frame of mind. Certainly you can have the day, boy. If anyone asks, you are on my business. Might I ask what this urgent errand is?"

  I looked into the fire at the leaping flames. "My friend was living in Siltbay. I need to find out-"

  "Oh, Fitz." There was more sympathy in Verity's voice than I could withstand.

  A sudden wave of weariness washed over me. I was glad to sit again. My hands began to tremble. I put them below the table and clasped them to still them. I still felt the tremors, but at least no one could see my weakness now.

  He cleared his throat. "Go to your room and rest," he said kindly. "Do you want a man to ride with you to Siltbay tomorrow?"

  I shook my head dumbly, suddenly and miserably certain of what I would discover. The thought made me sick. Another shudder went through me. I tried to breathe slowly, to calm myself and edge back from the fit that threatened. I could not abide the thought of shaming myself that way before Verity.

  "Shame to me, not you, to have ignored how ill you have been." He had arisen silently. He set his glass of wine before me. "The damage you took was taken for me. I am appalled by what I allowed to befall you."

  I forced myself to meet Verity's eyes. He knew all that I tried to conceal. Knew it, and was miserable with guilt.

  "It is not often this bad," I offered him.

  He smiled at me, but his eyes did not change. "You are an excellent liar, Fitz. Do not think your training has gone awry. But you cannot lie to a man who has been with you as much as I have, not just these last few days, but often during your illness. If any other man says to you, `I know just how you feel,' you may regard it as a politeness. But from me accept it as truth. And I know that with you it is as it is with Burrich. I shall not offer you the pick of the colts a few months hence. I do offer you my arm, if you wish it, to get back to your room."

  "I can manage," I said stiffly. I was aware of how he honored me, but also of how plainly he saw my weakness. I wanted to be alone, to hide myself.

  He nodded, understanding. "Would that you had mastered the Skill. I could offer you strength, just as I have too often taken it from you."

  "I could not," I muttered, unable to mask how distasteful I would find the drawing off of another man's strength to replace my own. I instantly regretted the moment of shame I saw in my prince's eyes.

  "I, too, could once speak with such pride," he said quietly. "Go get some rest, boy." He turned slowly aside from me. He busied himself setting out his inks and his vellum once more. I left quietly.

  We had been closeted for the whole day. Outside, it was full dark. The castle had the settled air of a winter's evening. The tables cleared, the folk would be gathered about the hearths in the Great Hall. Minstrels might be singing, or a puppeteer moving his gangly charges through a story. Some folk would watch while fletching arrows, some would be plying needles, children would be spinning tops or matching markers or drowsing against their parents' knees or shoulders. All was secure. Outside, the winter storms blew and kept us safe.

  I walked with a drunkard's caution, avoiding the common areas where folk had gathered for the evening. I folded my arms and hunched my shoulders as if chilled, and so stilled the trembling in my arms. I climbed the first flight of stairs slowly, as if lost in thought. On the landing I permitted myself to pause for a count of ten, then forced myself to begin the next flight.

  But as I set my foot to the first step, Lacey came bounding down. A plump woman more than a score of years older than myself, she still moved down the steps with a child's skipping gait. As she reached the bottom she seized me with a cry of "There you are!" as if I were a pair of shears she'd misplaced from her sewing basket. She clutched my arm firmly and turned me toward the hall. "I've been up and down those stairs a dozen times today if I've been once. My, you've gotten taller. Lady Patience has not been at all herself and it's your fault. At first she expected you to tap on the door any moment. She was so pleased you were finally home." She paused to look up at me with her bright bird eyes. "That was this morning," she confided. Then: "You have been ill! Such circles under your eyes."

  Without giving me a chance to reply, she went on, "By early afternoon, when you hadn't arrived, she began to be insulted and a bit cross. By dinner she was in such a temper over your rudeness she could scarcely eat. Since then, she's decided to believe the rumors about how sick you've been. She's sure that you've either collapsed somewhere, or that Burrich has kept you down in the stables cleaning up after horses and dogs despite your health. Now, here we are, in you go, I have him, my lady." And she whisked me into Patience's chambers.

  Lacey's chatter had an odd undertone to it, as if she avoided something. I entered hesitantly, wondering if Patience herself had been ill or if some misfortune had befallen her. If either were so, then it hadn't affected her living habits at all. Her chambers were much as they always were. All her greenery had grown and twined and dropped leaves. A
new layer of sudden interests overlay all the discarded ones in the room. Two doves had been added to her menagerie. A dozen or so horseshoes were scattered about the room. A fat bayberry candle burned on the table, giving off a pleasant scent, but dripping wax onto some dried flowers and herbs on a tray beside it. Some oddly carved little sticks in a bundle were also threatened. They appeared to be fortune-telling sticks such as the Chyurda used. As I entered, her tough little terrier bitch came up to greet me. I stooped to pat her, then wondered if I could stand again. To cover my delay, I carefully picked up a tablet from the floor. It was a rather old one, and probably rare, on the use of the fortune-telling sticks. Patience turned away from her loom to greet me.

  "Oh, get up and stop being ridiculous," she exclaimed at seeing me crouch. "Going down on one knee is idiocy. Or did you think it would make me forget how rude you've been in not coming to see me right away. What's that you've brought me? Oh, how thoughtful! How did you know I'd been studying them? You know, I've searched all the castle's libraries and not found much on the predicting sticks at all!"

  She took the tablet from my hand and smiled up at me at the supposed gift. Over her shoulder, Lacey winked at me. I gave a minuscule shrug in return. I glanced back at Lady Patience, who set the tablet atop a teetering stack of tablets. She turned back to me. For a moment she regarded me warmly, then she called up a frown to her face. Her brows gathered over her hazel eyes, while her small straight mouth held a firm line. The effect of her reproving look was rather spoiled by the fact that she came just to my shoulder now, and that she had two ivy leaves stuck in her hair. "Excuse me," I said, and boldly plucked them from the unruly dark curls. She took them from my hand seriously, as if they were important, and set them atop the tablet.

  "Where have you been, all these months, when you were needed here?" she demanded. "Your uncle's bride arrived months ago. You've missed the formal wedding, you've missed the feasting and the dancing and the gathering of the nobles. Here I am, expending all my energies to see that you are treated as the son of a Prince, and there you are, avoiding all your social obligations. And when you do get home, you don't come to see me, but go all about the Keep where anyone else might talk to you, dressed like a ragged tinker. Whatever possessed you to cut your hair like that?" My father's wife, once horrified to discover that he had sired a bastard before they were wed, had gone from abhorring me to aggressively bettering me. Sometimes that was more difficult to deal with than if she had ostracized me. Now she demanded, "Had you no thought that you might have social duties here that were more important than gallivanting about with Burrich looking at horses?"

  "I am sorry, my lady." Experience had taught me never to argue with Patience. Her eccentricity had delighted Prince Chivalry. It drove me to distraction on a good day. Tonight I felt overwhelmed by it. "For a time I was ill. I did not feel well enough to travel. By the time I recovered, the weather delayed us. I am sorry to have missed the wedding."

  "And that was all? That was the sole reason for your delay?" She spoke sharply, as if suspecting some heinous deception.

  "It was," I answered gravely. "But I did think of you. I have something for you, out in my packs. I haven't brought them up from the stable yet, but I will tomorrow."

  "What is it?" she demanded, curious as a child.

  I took a deep breath. I desperately wished for my bed. "It's a sort of an herbal. A simple one, for they are delicate, and the more ornate ones would not have stood up to the trip. The Chyurda don't use tablets or scrolls for teaching herbs, as we do. Instead, this is a wooden case. When you open it, you will discover tiny wax models of the herbs, tinted to the correct colors and scented with each herb to make it easier to learn them. The lettering is in Chyurda, of course, but I still thought you would enjoy it."

  "It sounds quite interesting," she said, and her eyes shone. "I look forward to seeing it."

  "Shall I bring him a chair, my lady? He does look as if he has been ill," Lacey interjected.

  "Oh, of course, Lacey. Sit down, boy. Tell me, what was your illness?" .

  "I ate something, one of the foreign herbs, and had a strong reaction to it." There. That was truthful. Lacey brought me a small stool and I sat gratefully. A wave of weariness passed through me.

  "Oh. I see." She dismissed my illness. She took a breath, glanced about, then suddenly demanded, "Tell me. Have you ever considered marriage?"

  The abrupt change in subject was so like Patience that I had to smile. I tried to put my mind to the question. For a moment I saw Molly, her cheeks reddened with the wind that teased her dark hair loose. Molly. Tomorrow, I promised myself. Siltbay.

  "Fitz! Stop that! I won't have you staring through me as if I were not here. Do you hear me? Are you well?"

  With an effort I called myself back. "Not really," I answered honestly. "It's been a tiring day for me ...."

  "Lacey, fetch the boy a cup of elderberry wine. He does look worn. Maybe this isn't the best time for talk," Lady Patience decided falteringly. For the first time she really looked at me. Genuine concern grew in her eyes. "Perhaps," she suggested softly, after a moment, "I do not know the full tale of your adventures."

  I looked down at my padded mountain buskins. The truth hovered inside me, then fell and was drowned in the danger of her knowing all that truth. "A long journey. Bad food. Dirty inns with sour beds and sticky tables. That sums it up. I don't think you really want to hear all the details."

  An odd thing happened. Our eyes met, and I knew she saw my lie. She nodded slowly, accepting the lie as necessary, and looked aside. I wondered how many times my father had told her similar lies. What did it cost her to nod?

  Lacey put the cup of wine into my hand firmly. I lifted it, and the sweet sting of the first sip revived me. I held it in both hands and managed to smile at Patience over it. "Tell me," I began, and despite myself, my voice quavered like an old man's. I cleared my throat to steady it. "How have you been? I imagine that having a Queen here at Buckkeep has made your life much busier. Tell me of all I have missed."

  "Oh," she said, as if pricked with a pin. Now it was Patience's turn to look aside. "You know what a solitary creature I am. My health is not always strong. To stay up late, dancing and talking, leaves me abed for two days afterward. No. I have presented myself to the Queen and sat at table with her a time or two. But she is young and busy and caught up in her new life. And I am old and odd, and my life is full of my own interests ...."

  "Kettricken shares your love of growing things," I ventured. "She would probably be most interested-" A sudden tremor rattled my bones and my teeth chattered to stillness. `.`I am just ... a bit cold." I excused myself and lifted my wine cup again. I took a gulp instead of the sip I had intended. My hands shook and wine sloshed over my chin and down my shirtfront. I jumped up in dismay and my traitorous hands let go the cup. It struck the carpet and rolled away, leaving a trail of dark wine like blood. I sat down again abruptly and clasped my arms around myself to try to still my shaking. "I am very tired," I attempted.

  Lacey came at me with a cloth and dabbed at me until I took it from her. I wiped my chin and blotted most of the wine from my shirt. But when I crouched down to mop up what had spilled, I almost pitched forward onto my face.

  "No, Fitz, forget the wine. We can tidy up. You are tired, and half-sick. Just take yourself up to bed. Come and see me when you've rested. I've something serious to discuss with you, but it will keep another night. Now off you go, boy. Off to bed."

  I stood, grateful for the reprieve, and made my cautious courtesies. Lacey saw me as far as the door, and then stood watching after me anxiously as far as the landing. I tried to walk as if the walls and floors weren't wavering. I paused at the stairs to give her a small wave, and then started up them. Three steps up and out of her sight, I stopped to lean on the wall and catch my breath. I lifted my hands to shield my eyes from the brilliant candlelight. Dizziness was washing over me in waves. When I opened my eyes, my vision was wreathed in rainbow fogs.
I closed them tight and pressed my hands to them.

  I heard a light step coming down the stairs toward me. It paused two steps above me. "Are you all right, sir?" someone asked uncertainly.

  "A bit too much to drink," I lied. Certainly the wine I had dumped over myself made me smell like a drunk. "I'll be fine in a moment."

  "Let me help you up the stairs. A stumble here might be dangerous." There was starched disapproval in the voice now. I opened my eyes and peered through my fingers. Blue skirts. Of the sensible fabric that all the servants wore. No doubt she'd had to deal with drunks before.

  I shook my head, but she ignored that, just as I would have in her position. I felt a strong hand grip my upper arm firmly, while her other arm encircled my waist. "Let's just get you up the stairs," she encouraged me. I leaned on her, not wanting to, and stumbled up to the next landing.

  "Thank you," I muttered, thinking she would leave me now, but she kept her grip.

  "Are you sure you belong on this level? The servants' quarters are the next flight up, you know."

  I managed a nod. "Third door. If you don't mind."

  She was silent for longer than a moment. "That's the Bastard's room." The words were flung like a cold challenge.

  I did not flinch to the words as I would have once. I did not even lift my head. "Yes. You may go now." I dismissed her as coldly.

  Instead she stepped closer. She seized my hair, jerked my head up to face her. "Newboy!" she hissed in fury. "I should drop you right here."

  I jerked my head up. I could not make my eyes focus on her eyes, but all the same, I knew her, knew the shape of her face and how her hair fell forward on her shoulders, and her scent, like a summer afternoon. Relief crashed over me like a wave. It was Molly, my Molly the candlemaker. "You're alive!" I cried out. My heart leaped in me like a hooked fish. I took her in my arms and kissed her.